Thoughts before leaving?

Ok well tomorrow at five in the afternoon i will be leaving for anchorage alaska to train for a job while staying alone in a motel for a week before heading off to deadhorse alaska to work for two weeks doing odd jobs around a heavily machined refinery. My feelings of this event come as; sadness, excitment, nervousness, impatience, determined. I am one big mess of emotions, mostly because i'll be away from home for an entire summer and im not sure i can function without my parents (WHICH IS DISGUSTINGLY SAD) Then the other half is just pure determination to prove that i dont need to live at home and i can make it on my own. Its time to grow up kelsie and although my parents haven't properly prepared me for a life on my own i KNOW i can do it. I will most likely need their help throughout these next years but i just hate relying on anyone this much, they've done so much for me and i wish they wouldn't have to. i wish i could say "don't worry about it i got this" right now this goal of independence seems hopeless but its all i want as i emerge from a sheltered house with plenty of food, love, clothes, and the unecessary extras. i will find what i need to do to fill this hole or i will just continue to work for it. Tomorrow i take my first step towards this accomplishment.

Long time no see!?

Wow this page is in some serious need of updating but seeing as how i haven't been on, Le Blogger, in quite some time i completely forgot how it works and my blog spot is once again a scary page of computer stuff. Well it'll all work out i'm sure. Haha man! i've been reading my stuff and some of it i'm actually embarrassed to keep reading probably because a few people have told me that they actually read my blog!! ah way to go guys now i'm insecure about what i write. . . oh well! hmm i think this paragraph will be my welcome back writting sample so WELCOME BACK KELSIE! even if its only for a couple days. . . again.