Thoughts before leaving?

Ok well tomorrow at five in the afternoon i will be leaving for anchorage alaska to train for a job while staying alone in a motel for a week before heading off to deadhorse alaska to work for two weeks doing odd jobs around a heavily machined refinery. My feelings of this event come as; sadness, excitment, nervousness, impatience, determined. I am one big mess of emotions, mostly because i'll be away from home for an entire summer and im not sure i can function without my parents (WHICH IS DISGUSTINGLY SAD) Then the other half is just pure determination to prove that i dont need to live at home and i can make it on my own. Its time to grow up kelsie and although my parents haven't properly prepared me for a life on my own i KNOW i can do it. I will most likely need their help throughout these next years but i just hate relying on anyone this much, they've done so much for me and i wish they wouldn't have to. i wish i could say "don't worry about it i got this" right now this goal of independence seems hopeless but its all i want as i emerge from a sheltered house with plenty of food, love, clothes, and the unecessary extras. i will find what i need to do to fill this hole or i will just continue to work for it. Tomorrow i take my first step towards this accomplishment.